I'm sitting here at the library attempting to write one of the last papers of my college career and put together slides for one of my last "school-related" powerpoint presentations. I have been challenged within myself to consider what it is that I'm living for. Is it to graduate? To be done here at SCSU? To get married? Or is it to live for God first and foremost and rely on Him in and through all of those things? I hope that it's the last option, but in reality I do find myself sick with spring fever and the desire to be done with college already a bit overwhelming and a common thought. I hope that it is comforting to know that you're not the only one feeling this way, it is for me. I hope the Lord helps us all rely on Him and strive to please Him more than our group members or professors (although those are important for this time too). Keep on trusting Him, I tell myself, His plans are the best. And so I pray that He strengthens me to perservere and finish well.
We received a little book of bedtime prayers to read to our little guy when we were pregnant, and one of the prayers is titled, "You're never, ever alone." It is a little cheesy and even rhymes, but it teaches that no matter what, no matter where, God is with you. It is so basic, but it's a reminder that I've needed a lot, and so have many of my friends. In the last several months, God has brought me conversations with other women, where God has used me to assure them that they are not alone in various circumstances. One friend was dealing with family and friends who kept telling her "how small" she was in her pregnancy, and some family members even told her to her face that they didn't think she could accomplish a natural childbirth as she desired (for those who did not get comments about being "so small," it often made me feel as though people thought I wasn't eating enough or doing pregnancy well, which this momma was feeling too)....
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