I'm sitting here at the library attempting to write one of the last papers of my college career and put together slides for one of my last "school-related" powerpoint presentations. I have been challenged within myself to consider what it is that I'm living for. Is it to graduate? To be done here at SCSU? To get married? Or is it to live for God first and foremost and rely on Him in and through all of those things? I hope that it's the last option, but in reality I do find myself sick with spring fever and the desire to be done with college already a bit overwhelming and a common thought. I hope that it is comforting to know that you're not the only one feeling this way, it is for me. I hope the Lord helps us all rely on Him and strive to please Him more than our group members or professors (although those are important for this time too). Keep on trusting Him, I tell myself, His plans are the best. And so I pray that He strengthens me to perservere and finish well.
.... And most of it is small stuff. Lately I've been thinking about how much other people have the potential to either make you smile or get under your skin. I've recently encountered several situations in which I had been struggling to not let other people completely ruin my experience with something or my attitude about things. Through a lot of processing, I realized that I was trying to micro-manage and control other people's responses, thoughts, actions and words in my own strange way. I was giving them the power to dictate whether or not I enjoy myself and enjoy life. How strange of me! Then I realized that a lot of people tend to do that (although usually subconsciously) and end up being so frustrated by everyone else's junk or bad attitudes that they themselves become junk-carrying crabby people. So I figured, hey, I have enough stuff to carry around on my own. Why on earth would I try to also figure out your issues? (unless of course you ask for help) Plus, ...
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